first i want to say a BIG THANKS to all of you for asking me to come back and not only for that ! u can be sure, i really missed u all. ok - now i will explain why i was so dissapointed and sad in the same time: 1. ARRIMSH ALDALIL was not really the reason for the "good bye". the reason was more, that some persons here - u can read the namens and answers in HER topic - they agreed with everything, but in the same time this persons are telling me: u are doing a good job and we like what are u doing. i dont like people at all they are like a flag - whereever the wind goes - they will follow. i was so sad and dissapointed because of that. 2. why there is not a topic always on the top whats saying this are the rules of this forum? because - like me - when i came in this site, i didnt know something about rules in forums, because i was never in a forum before. and all new people they are coming in here, they can read and know the rules then 3. i wasnt here now for 2 days. where are the new topics? (u said - or i understand that - i took a place that other people deserve) - so where are there topics? and even when i did 1000 topics in a day - that doesnt finish the inc of the site (ok - that was kidding) in the same time adel told me, i can put topics and he didnt make rules on me or said, u have to do only 1, 2, 3 or ................topics a day 4. i answered ALWAYS every topic (only when it was not in english or it needs a lot of informations from yemen - like political topics), because i wanted to "WELCOME" all the new people and that they feel, that we care about them and care about the site. and one more: that doesnt mean, that u have to like all my topics and you have to answer them all - u can answer the topics u really like. because i think i can handle more the true words - even when they are not so nice, but true. i tried always to make the site alive, that - when some one comes in - she/he will find something new. 5. another thing was - and i dont blame u - my sisters and brothers for that - i only want to tell that. they did votings in the arabic forum and no one was speaking about that - even not the supervisors. and no one said the result of this votings - i knew that only from my husband. no one of the supervisors that "congratulatios" (because that would mean for me, because they choosed me to be the star: im doing aomething good here and i was happy about that) and i dont think, that means that made me more high, but for me it means, they respected that im doing a work. but why to make votings when no one cares or speaks about that????? 6. i want to say something more about the topics: i was always waiting for YOUR topics - but when there was sometimes nothing - sometimes not a lot - i made topics, because i was careing about the site. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- to mr. bash and only for him: you are the HISTORY - so be soooooooo silent - sssssshhhhhhh you have never been here in this site - so dont blame people for something - that u dont understand. this people - my sisters and brothers - have a heart and feelings - but u have there only a stone AND where is your work here? why u are wasting your time to write such stupid things? if u will tell us something, then make a topic by ur own!